For the longest time, I couldn’t remember much about Kenneth Grahame’s The Wind in the Willows (1908). At least when it comes to the plot. I actually had some vivid images of my childhood bedroom each time I looked at it standing in my bookshelf: the blue tapestry, the dark blue covers I was tucked into with all its yellow moons and white sheep. My huge chunk of a bed which would creak with every motion, even if I did no more than reach for my favourite cuddly toy – the infamous red doll-like little guy I’ve had with me ever since I was born that was named most creatively “poppet” and can play this old German lullaby “Sleep, dear child, sleep”. And of course, I could remember the wet facecloth and the hot water bottle on my ear. Why? Because I had the most terrible ear-infections when I was small.
…when I was young, my father would stay up late and read to me. He was addicted to the written word. I would fall asleep listening to the sound of his voice.
Drew Barrymore as Danielle in Ever After
Most of the times it hurt so bad that I couldn’t sleep, so I would get up way past my bedtime, toddle into the living-room and get my parents to magically make my pain disappear. They were good like that, blowing at abrasions until the pain seemed to fly away. Not with the earaches though. So they had to try something different. It was around that time that they started to read The Wind in the Willows to me. I was too small to understand all the words and grasp the story but I remember them showing me pictures from the book and I would fall asleep listening to the sound of my Dad’s voice.
Taking a chance
Anyway, all I remembered about the book until recently was that there was a mole called Mole, a rat named Rat and a toad named Toad. And that they all liked each other and hung around at each other’s places. Not much to go by but I still loved my copy for the memories I associated with it. And was afraid they wouldn’t mean as much after re-reading it. So the book stayed in my bookshelf for most of my life, only to be taken out and put into a packing case every time I moved. Until 2021, at the age of 25, when I finally decided to take a chance and read it again.
And what did I find between its pages? I mean other than a beautifully written children’s tale of friendship, loyalty and praise of the simple things in life? A whole set of memories I didn’t know I had. There was the inscription of my grandparents who had given me The Wind in the Willows and its sequel The Willows in Winter by William Horwood as a gift when I was a baby. My first books ever! “We wish you a lot of pleasant hours in the land of reading-adventures.” There were scenes, pictures in the book that I recognized from my childhood like a whisper from the past, feelings of comfort and safety and passages I could hear read in my father’s voice. And in my boyfriend’s who I had asked to read me the first chapter when I was feeling sick a couple of weeks before.
And what an extraordinary children’s story it is: Mole leaving his tiny home under the earth to live with Rat, paddling, having picknicks and idly spending their evenings with friends, their adventure in the Wild Wood where they stay with Badger who does not appreciate visits, the arrogant Toad who makes car driving his new hobby, getting himself in trouble again and again despite his friends trying to take care of him and the grand finale when they are fighting the weasels and stoats from the Wild Wood together which have taken over Toad Hall.
“Dulce Domum”
To me, what makes these animals special is how human they are. I’m pretty sure I could describe most people I know by comparing them to one or two of them. Me, I am definitely Mole – loyal, honest, trying to act courageous even when you don’t feel like it and with a hint of naivety. In one chapter, “Dulce Domum” (which means “Sweet Home”) Mole revisits his home after having stayed with Rat for a couple of months:
It was one of these mysterious fairy calls from out the void that suddenly reached Mole in the darkness, making him tingle through and through with its very familiar appeal, even while yet he could not clearly remember what it was. He stopped dead in his tracks, his nose searching hither and thither in its efforts to recapture the fine filament, the telegraphic current, that had so strongly moved him. A moment, and he had caught it again; and with it this time came recollection in fullest flood.
Home! That was what they meant, those caressing appeals, those soft touches wafted through the air, those invisible little hands pulling and tugging, all one way! Why, it must be quite close by him at that moment, his old home that he had hurriedly forsaken and never sought again, that day when he first found the river! And now it was sending out its scouts and its messengers to capture him and bring him in. Since his escape on that bright morning he had hardly given it a thought, so absorbed had he been in his new life, in all its pleasures, its surprises, its fresh and captivating experiences. Now, with a rush of old memories, how clearly it stood up before him, in the darkness! Shabby indeed, and small and poorly furnished, and yet his, the home he had made for himself, the home he had been so happy to get back to after his day’s work. And the home had been happy with him, too, evidently, and was missing him, and wanted him back, and was telling him so, through his nose, sorrowfully, reproachfully, but with no bitterness or anger; only with plaintive reminder that it was there, and wanted him.
Not only does Grahame capture the sense of home beautifully but he also struck a nerve with me. I had just given up my own little home of seven years to move into a bigger apartment with my boyfriend. A change that was good, important and that I had looked forward to but that also made me realize how much this small shabby place which had given me independence, responsibilities and my very first fridge meant to me. Reading the feelings that I couldn’t describe in a book that had set on my shelf for a quarter of a century felt like a strange coincidence, nearly as if I was meant to read those words at this very moment in time when I needed them most. “Dolce Domum” will therefore always be my most cherished and most read chapter in The Wind in the Willows.
While I can see myself in Mole (he even inspired me to have a spring cleaning), others might share characteristics with the romantic Rat who simply loves his quiet and idyllic life close to the river, or maybe the wise Badger who prefers to live alone in the woods and only shows up when he wishes for company. And then there’s Toad, selfish, hedonistic and boastful but maybe the most fun character, with a development that is in for a surprise. A special nod also goes to my favourite guest star, Sea Rat, whose adventurous life travelling the world will always be my ideal. Maybe one day I’m courageous enough to live it.
For the longest time, I was afraid of what I might lose when re-reading the book, that the new memories I make might overwrite the old ones which had become special to me those past 25 years. Instead, re-reading this book was like a trip to the past that made me realize where my love for books might have started. If I ever have kids of my own, I will read this book to them every time they are feeling sick. Isn’t that how traditions are born?